Annoyed -_-

So I have basically been in my room all day for the most part. It seems like the only time they come to see me at all is when they need something from me and not when they want me around.

I hate it when I feel like all they want is when they need. All it is doing is making me want to move out even more because the little perfect family is sitting in the kitchen eating. I just chose to sit in my room because I don't like being some kind of wheel and I know that I promise myself that I will not be apart of something unless I really have someone to talk to that makes it an even number.

I hate feeling this way but I know in order for me to be happy I need to move out because here all I am is some other person when they are together and I am getting sick and tired of it.

When I wanted to be like that I couldn't be because they didn't want us hanging around each other so many days out of the week. Of course though it would be different for her since everything seems to be different for her in the last year.

I don't know how much more I can take and at some point I am really going to snap and I just hope it won't be soon.

I think from now on as long as he is here I am going to take my food to my room. I don't want to be apart of that family if they don't want to include me in any other way or who I am with....